I just don’t feel like myself sometimes anymore. Like a part of me is just gone, or scarred. I dunno. There are days when I just feel like breaking down and crying. I am not at all sure why. Like I am this super awkward human being living on a planet of outgoing and awesome people. I have consumed myself with Big Time Rush. I guess that’s what my life has come down to. A boy band. I wish I was how I used to be, when I used to laugh pretty much all the time. But all I am is shy and insecure. I hate high school. Bleh ugh poop… BUT I manage to hide this under my “shield” of happiness…or so it seems. That is all. T.H.E E.N.D? :/